I can't forgive myself

Last yearI worked with a woman over the phone who experienced daily fainting spells that could last from a few hours to a full day. This condition was going on for a few months before she called me. Her neurologist diagnosed her with conversion disorder. Conversion disorder is a neurological disorder in which physical symptoms are unconsciously caused by a stressful or traumatic event. A friend of hers recommended giving me a call. During the first conversation she told me that she wanted to share something she had only told one person, just recently. I told her that if this was the “BIG ONE” we could tap before she told me her story, or even not tell it to me at all for right now, but she was adamant to relate the story to me.
She continued to tell me about an incident that happened when she was about four, five years old. She was walking by a river and came upon an older girl that was startled by her sudden appearance. The older girl proceeded to beat her up and pummel her. Scared, she tried to kick her away from her, which she succeeded in doing but then the older girl lost her footing and fell in the river. She saw her struggle for a while and then disappear in the water. She also explained to me how this memory got triggered by a story she heard from one of her friends about a child that almost drowned.
I explained to her how trauma gets locked in the body and we started tapping on all the aspects we could possibly see, such as the shock of the girl falling in the river, which was not her intention to do; seeing the struggle of the girl to keep her head above the water; the fact that she did not come up after a while; the guilt she felt about this whole event; the shame and sadness that she was not able to go for help, etc.
She made good progress and after our first session she reported that the fainting spells were now only 10-15 minutes at the most, instead of hours or a day. After the second session she had two weeks in which she did not faint at all. As part of her “home work” I asked her, if she was able and willing to do so, to talk about this incident to at least one person a week. Of all the people she spoke to, no one was judgmental or critical of her, which was a great relieve for her. I gave her this task to help her create a support system as well as to “normalize” the experience and see it in a different perspective: as an accident.
One of the most difficult things she had to face was forgiveness. She said that she could not forgive herself for what she had done, that she was a “bad” person,” that she should not have “pushed” this otyher girl in the river; that she should have gone for help. As is clear from this story there were myriad aspects and feelings to tap on. After six weeks of intense and deep work, she is now looking at going back to work and moving on with her life. She has been able to see, through tapping and through telling the story to her friends and family, that no one is holding her responsible for this accident. She then finally could let go of her heavy self judgment and criticism and come to a point of acceptance and forgiveness for herself.